I felt Satin riding crop again!

[Epson]

When does it ever end?  On Monday, I informed the human resource person that I might have to take some time off of work, depending how I react to my chemo therapy.  I assured her take I had some to cover me in my absence.  She was very sympathetic and said, no problem, I am sure that it is a scary time for you.

This empathy was frightening, I always call these people in this position, Inhuman Resources, maybe I was wrong? 

After work I went to see my Dad at the hospice, when I entered his room, I found him dead.  Now I was prepared for his inevitable demise, that's what a hospice is for, but seeing his corps was something I was not prepare for.  This was a vision that took several days to get out of my head, kind of like walking in on your parents while they're having sex, that never happened to me, but I can imagine the trauma, not a good visual.

Now the guy was 87 and I am OK with it now, no need for folks to say I am sorry for you loss, as my Dad would say, at my age every day is a good day when you wake up in the morning.

What I was unprepared for happened yesterday, at the end of the day I was told that the Human Resource manager wanted to see my, this could only mean one thing!

They would have to let me got because my condition means that I might miss work and being part time, I didn't have enough time to qualify for FML.  In plain speak, you have cancer please leave now.  They don't even pay part timers for sick days, I think it is because several people have been off of work due to life threatening illnesses.

Now I will be all right financially, well given the economy I guess no one can say that, not even Donald Trump, but what blows the wind out of my sails is how anyone could do that job, you have to be one cold hearted bitch

[ruby52]

No matter his age the loss of ones parent is a terrible loss,My heart goes out to you.It must have been a very surreal experience to walk in and find out that way.As for your job,talk about hitting someone when they're down.Shame on them!It's the way of the world now isn't it?Used to be people were more important then the almighty dollar but not anymore.Showing my age I guess but it's just not right to be so unfeeling.So sorry Epson I hope for luck anytime soon.
                                                         Ruby

[kimbo]

Epson,

So sorry. 

I know what you mean about inhumane resources. We have medical facilities in our area called "Mercy medical" when I am unhappy with them, I call them "NO Mercy medical"  Some times life just ain't fare.

My favorite scene in the movie Forrest Gump, is when the young women is throwing rocks at the home she was raised in. (she was abused in the home)
Forrest Gump says..."sometimes there is just not enough rocks"....... I think there is something to be said about the therapy of rock throwing. It has to be better than hitting a wall with your fist. As some of you guys do  .

I hope you have lots of memories of your father to replace in the corpse memory. Push it out with good stuff.

kimbo

[Scottietottie]

Oh boy - 2009 is getting no better for you. 

I am sorry for your loss. It must have been awful to walk in and be the one that found him.

I think being asked to leave your job stinks. Really bad. I hope you can use all your energy to fight your way through the coming weeks and months. I can't imagine you just doing nothing somehow. Do you have a blog? It would make good reading.

Take care - Scottie 

[JannaLee]

Holy Freaking Cow!

What you've described doesn't even happen in the movies!  Geeze!

Epson, my dear friend, there are no words to cover these topics appropriately.

The thing with your dad must have been...for lack of a better word....STUNNING, MIND NUMBING, HEART BREAKING.  He wasn't afforded that privacy we all imagine for ourselves and you had something taken from you in that moment that I cannot imagine.  I understand your analogy perfectly, as I felt a jolt of adrenaline when I read your post.

As to the HR lady.  There is a special place in He** for her.  She'll be right near the health insurance people.

I wish I could write about this better.  I wish I could express my very sincere feelings of empathy, amazement and concern for you, sir.

I am both enraged and so very sorry that your week has been thus.
Janna

[Pooh]

Epson, I have nothing to say that hasn't already been said.  I know that sinking feeling you got in your gut when you found your Dad, I felt it when I found my Mother in the ICU unit.  There are no words to describe that feeling. 

Hang in there, and know that all of us here are praying for you and rooting for better luck down the road.

Pooh

[Collie]

Epson, i cannot add any more to what has been said already, except for my son's favorite saying "MEAN PEOPLE SUCK !!!!"

Collie

[Bucky]

Epson,

I am sorry for the loss of your father, any time we lose our parents is a tough time, whether we are expecting their passing or not.  When my mother passed away almost four years ago under hospice care we were expecting it, yet you're never "ready" for it once it happens.   I also know what it's like to walk in and find a loved one deceased - my sister passed away seven yrs. ago and I was the one to discover this.  It's never easy.  My thoughts are with you.  Cherish your happy memories of your Dad.

I'm also sorry for your job loss.  I know you probably don't want to hear this, but I doubt it was JUST the Human Resource Manager that made the decision.  It was probably made by upper management and the HRM was the "messenger" to give the news to you.  Any way you look at it, it was a bum deal. 

Hang in there Epson . . .  we're all here for ya.

Bucky

[Epson]

Bucky,

You're probably right about the Human Resources just following orders, I think that's what the Nazis at Buchenwald said.  Who wants a job screwing their fellow worker, not me.

[BonusMom]

Epson-

Those lousy, scumbag <bleeping> creeps!  HR people claim that "it's a business decision".  Bull pucky    How about a humanitarian decision?  I'm so angry that you were dealt that low blow on top of everything else.

How these idiots sleep at night is beyond me!

[genko_b]

Epson:

As Pooh says, there is nothing left to add to what has been said. My heart goes out to you.

Genko

[Billydude]

Epson,  I'm so moved by this post!  Also,  I am sorry even though you said not to say it.  I can relate to the vision being in your head.   My partner (previous) passed away a few years back and I was home alone with him.  The memory that sticks with me is when they came to take him away and the last sight was seeing him zipped up in a body bag.   Memories like that stick with you.    I wish you had a better ending experience.
Steve

[irish]

Epson, It seems as though you have had enough happen in the past few weeks to last a long, long time. You will miss your Dad, what more can I say. Even when they are old and ill and you are expecting it they are still your parents. When they are gone we are the Old generation.

Now, regarding human resources, that is a job that I would not like to have. She is the companies bearer of bad news. And, the bad news is always related to the almighty dollar!!! As far as getting along, we are all going to be in the same boat. None of us will have much of anything at the rate it is going. However, I seem to remember this to be the case as I was growing up. We were all poor but didn't know it cause everybody else was also. Problem is we have all gotten so that we expect so much more out of life, things, medical care included. It is going to take some adjustment.

When do you start your chemo??? I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Irish

[kimbo]

Great wisdom Irish.

kimbo

[lynnmarie219]

Hi Epson,

I cant say anything more  than has been said except that I will also keep you in my thoughts and prayers....you have been through enough and you deserve a break! I hope it comes soon for you!