Off Topic, life just isn't fair

[Patze]

Hi Billye,

I'm sorry that your body is just not giving you much of a break!  I sure hope you feel better soon and give that precious pup a scratch for me, will you?

Take care -

Patze

[JannaLee]

Billye,

I am very sad to hear you've been sick on top of careworn over the loss of this lovely boy.

It is not hard to imagine a flare + infection coming out of all that happened.  Your husband's surgery alone was enough to do it.  It is absolutely wonderful that he has had such a good report!

So now you will heal and move on carrying with you some exceedingly raw hurt places.

Janna

PS Put me down for a snuggle with your little pup! 

[LenV]

At this point I will give you the pup!!

Last night at 1:30 she woke me up and insisted I sleep with her.  I have a new daybed bought just so I can sleep with her during thunderstorms.  She has storm phobia.  But it is high off the floor and I've not found steps that look sturdy enough for her yet.  She will jump and think nothing about it.  But it's really too high for her to safely do that.  I don't need a dog with a broken bone.  I've got that base covered myself.     So I spent the night in the recliner again.  She just got so spoiled when I was having to sleep in the recliner during my husband's recovery.  Her hair is so wiry that we can't let her sleep with us in our bed.  We have a memory foam mattress and her hair would thread it's way into the mattress, so we sleep with her and the other two in the den.

So I'm back to base one until Weds when we are going to another town to one of the supper pet stores.  Maybe I can find a good step for her there.

If not, I'm having one custom built.  I want a mattress at night.

Thanks all for he incredibly kind messages.  You have really helped me get thru this.  And....Janna Lee, you are right, I'll always have a little hole in my heart for this precious boy who is so missed by so many.

Billye

[irish]

billye, I want to apologize to you for not posting on this thread. As I stop and think now I think I did post and then I lost it and forgot again!!!

I am so sorry about the loss of this boy. I raised 3 sons and I know how it is to have others boys around so much that they seem like part of the family. It is something that will hurt for a long time. Suicide is a terrible thing as it is so hard on those left behind. I can certainly commiserate with you about the stress of your hubbys health issues, then the dog issues, no sleep issues and this funeral stress. It is no wonder that you have gotten ill. Please rest and take good care of yourself. I miss you a lot on the site. Come back when you are up to it. Hugs Irish

[Pooh]

Billye, sorry I have been away, but I just wanted to say how sorry I am for the loss of this wonderful young boy.  I'm sure he will be missed greatly by all who knew him. 

I hope you are feeling better soon and your little pup gets over it's storm "allergy".   Have you tried the "Rescue Remedy" when a storm is coming.  You can find it in WalMart's vitamin section or at GNC.  It's a natural soothing drops to calm humans and animals.  We use it for our dogs when it's time to go to the vets.  Works wonders.

Take care and I do hope to see you back on the boards real soon.

Hugs and God Bless,
Pooh

[loisellenatkins]

Sorry  you are having such a hard time.  Fatigue overwhelms all of us.  Getting rest needs to be a priority.  Without rest all things seem worse. Get those ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZs

[LenV]

Hello all,
Finally some good news to report.  I took my husband to the eye doctor this morning and he got a good report.  Now if his tear function starts up again, we will be on the way to a great surgery result.  The doctor says it usually kicks in about 4-6 weeks after surgery.  So soon hopefully.

Then I deserted him and had lunch with a friend. My respiriatory infection seems to be abating after the trusty Z pack.  Just left with all the breaking up post infection coughing. 

Pooh, I haven't tried Rescue Remedy.  But you can believe I'll be getting some tomorrow.  Thanks for the suggestion.

Irish,
Thank you for the message.  I still tear up when I think of him.  I suspect I will for a very long time.  He was just one of mine and it hurts.  It will heal, it always does.

Billye

[Pooh]

Billye, if you try the drops, just put 3 drops on the puppies tongue.  It takes about 15 minutes to work, but it helps with the anxiety and fears when storms come. 

Hope you are feeling better.  Have a great lunch and enjoy your time out. 

Hugs, Pooh

[Skylar]

Billye, I'm so sorry to hear about your troubles. But thankful that you are doing better. I too would like to sign up for a cuddle with your puppy. LOL Our dog developed a fear later in life about storms - oh boy it was awful. Talk to your vet about it, they may have something to help your pup.

[LenV]

Oh Dear Lord, will it ever end???!!!  I got a phone call late last night from my Mom's oldest Sister (my Aunt) telling me that the youngest Sister (my Aunt also) had a heart attack last Friday.  They put her in the hospital in Columbus, Miss to stabilize her.  While they had her there they did a heart cath and she has 4 veins almost 100% blocked.  They decided to send her to the University of Alabama to a good heart specialist for surgery.  Last night she crashed and flatlined.  But they were able to get her back.  Then the doctor told us she didn't have as good a chance of surviving the surgery since the crash last night and asked the family what they wanted to do.  He said without the surgery she had no chance.  So my cousin's husband asked the doctor "If it were your mother, what would you do?".  The doctor told him, I'd give it a shot, at least she would have a chance. 

So they did the surgery and we've all been hanging by the phone all day since we can't be there.  7 & 1/2 hours surgery and now 3 days on a ventilator in CCU .  It's been a long day.  Just wish I could have been there. 

My husband tells me I just thrive on the drama in my life.  I'm thinking of giving him so drama with a baseball bat applied to his noggin.

Anyway, please pray for my Aunt Floyce in Alabama.  We all love her so much.

Pooh, I got rescue drops for Miss Cami today.  We're trying them.  Pray for me...I need sleep and less worry.  I'm in a flare.  Trying to work during all of this.  Got to do the windows at the shop tomorrow in preparation for a big downtown festival.  Downtown is re-opening and we will have street activities, sidewallk sales, etc. going on so I need  festive windows with classy clothes and jewelry.  Somewher I have to find time to complely fall apart.  Does falling sleep when you are sitting still, falling asleep over the breakfast table and dinner table mean something is worng ?  So far I haven't fallen asleep driving.  'm still 2 weeks away from having the next bloodwork done for my rheumatologist .

Thanks for letting me ramble.  My poor old head is on overload again.  So is the body.
Love you all and hope to get caught up sooon.
Billye

[genko_b]

Hi Billye, Take care. At some point things will have to get better or slower or something different, don't they?

Genko

[Scottietottie]

((((((( Billye ))))))) You're in my thoughts - as is your aunt.

Please don't fall asleep driving. It can be done unfortunately. My daughter went to sleep riding a bicycle once. She got away with it.

Take care - Scottie

[JannaLee]

Bill honey, sometimes boys just don't get it about us.  We are the "feelers" who are loaded with empathy and nurture and what not.  We cannot help but feel deeply distressed when awful things happen to others.

Because of your ability to thrive on drama, he will live longer...it's a proven fact!

You are the dearest!
Janna

PS I hope Mistress Cami is snoring away now!

[Pooh]

Hi Billye,
I know how you try to take care of everyone, but please, please take time for BILLYE.  There won't be much you can do if you get sick and need to be in bed. 

I'm so sorry about your aunt.  I pray all goes well for her and the family.

Hugs and God Bless,
Pooh

[susanep]

Billye so sorry for all you have gone through and are going through. There will be better days. There just has to be . We are all thinking of you, and all that has been going on. Life is strange to say the least. Please get rest when you can. You wont be able to help others without some rest yourself. I am guilty of that myself. Some things are so tragic. We live in an imperfect world. We all just do the best we can and go on. As bad as you have felt and with all going on , you have done a good job. We are proud of you.

susanep