My Hurt Feelings?

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Lucy

I feel your sister (little Missy) was a control freak.

Maybe some people at weddings and funerals can't deal well with their emotions and to work  through the occasion (unconciously I hope) become difficult.

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[susanep]

You are all very kind, and wise, and Gayle your comment was funny. I will adopt all of you as sisters.    My sister probably didn't mean anything, but she is the one of the three of us that is the controller.

Each year forever when it's Mother's Day, Father's Day, Thanksgiving, and Christmas, she would arrange what would happen at mom and dad's with my other sister that lives an hour away from here. They would tell me about it a day or two before.

It they decided to draw names the last few years as families grew, they would let me know, not me in on it. So I guess when it was mom's funeral and everything that goes with it my emotions just ran higher, and it was like GET OUT OF MY WAY! sorry, that was just showing you how I felt. 

Oh, and the early morning that we got the loud knocking at our front door to tell us mom died, and me running down the hill to mom's crying (I want to see my momma) and when I got in the yard to go in, that controlling sister grabbed me and said, get yourself together for dad, and don't cry like that.

I was like what? This seemed pretty normal to me to be mourning and in shock at hearing out mother died, and dad's wife died. Dad wouldn't have thought anything weird to see his oldest daughter (me) crying over her mother.

Ok, I am calm now.    All of you have helped me more than you know. Thank you, because you all made me feel comfortable enough to express how I truly felt, but since yesterday evening I have been really calm about it all, and have just kind of prayed for my whole family, and then just know that I will help dad all I can, and love all the others, but not mess with their ways, and me and mine go on with ours.

Love you all!
susanep

[Gayle]

consider yourself with another sister... me! Happy to include you in my strange, dysfunctional family