agoraphobia & rage

[flutterfly]

HEY SHA~I WAS ~GONNA~ POST BACK TA EVERY1 BOUT THEIR RESPONSES ~BUT~ U "BOUT COVERED IT!  

ANITA~ i'm a walkin' bill even w/good ins.! so the option of payin' outa pocket & the hassle of gettin' it from canada isn't worth it!
but YES doc has givin" me that option!

SHELTIE~ R U MIFT? I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND UR POST? PLEASE EXPLAIN!  

SHA~ SURGERY DAY 4 PAPA...NEED THE STRAW...BACK SO I CAN SUCK IT UP!
luv u! will keep u updated as ta how the day goes HONEYBEE!

please guys send good thoughts taday! agoraphobed flutterfly has ta be @ hospital all day w/papa bladder cancer surgery!
hope that everythin' turns out well 4 papa & that i don't...DOT ANY1'S EYES & CROSS ANY1'S EARS 4 BEIN' A BIG RED TRUCK KINDA PEEP!

~*FOGGY FREAKED OUT KINDA FLUTTERFLY*~

[Lily]

See there's a double header going on.

Okay, Sha and flutter -

You don't understand Sheltiemom's reply?

Here's a clue.

She's probably referencing your word games, and said so with clarity and brevity.


Lily

[flutterfly]

LILY~ well here`s the deal...i`m tryin` ta NOT RAGE HERE SO I SAY EXACTLY WHAT I MEAN! DON`T HAVE A CHOICE...WASN`T BORN W/A FILTER 4 MY THOUGHTS! not tryin` ta word game u or any1 else! i had responded ta marilyn  & used humor ta  say it! if 4 sum reason that offended u or sheltie all i can say is THATS sad! SO THERE!

i don`t think i should have ta apologize 4 the things i talk ta my twin`bout! Or the way i say them! but thanx a bunch 4 ur input! WOW I WOULDA NEVER FIGURED IT OUT! 

u or sheltie don`t know what we are dealin`w/w/my papa or our lives! i try really hard ta just keep an even keel 4 the day! but ta tell ya the truth...i don`t think WE`RE THE 1`s  that were  word playin`!

i said what i said ta sheltie so maybe ME & HER COULD HAVE A DISCUSSION `bout what mift her!

have a funky kinda day!

~*NOT CONFUSED @ ALL FLUTTERFLY*~

p.s. did u notice this threads `bout RAGE & agoraphobia? HMMMM!

[Lily]

What a piece of work.

'Bye, 'bye.

Lily

[flutterfly]

THAT`S WHAT ~SHE~ SAYS! hey welcome ta the boards lily!
i hope this place is sumwhere u can come & be honest & BE URSELF! i also hope the info u find here will help u w/ ur journey!

PEACE 4 THE ANGRY PEEPS! & we`re all angy peeps on occassion! SMILES!

~*JUST TRYIN` TA BE...FLUTTERFLY*~

[flutterfly]

oh golly guys...i will just warn ya...sorta explicit...

so has any1 had ta take care of an elderly parent? well lets just get ta it...i am! he's 82 & i luv him very much!
i also have a touch of um...modesty! oh gosh i guess not much but sum...@ least w/my papa! now guys i have went 35 years w/out seein' or EVER really thinkin' 'bout his nuh~uhs!

that ALL changed since his bladder surgery! um lets just say that he don't care...& i do...but i CAN'T & WON'T say anythin'!
he has a catheter 'til thurs. i was a quick study & can unhook & hook & dump & clean like a pro now!

honestly everythin' was fine right up 'til i'm down on my knees dumpin bag & um he wanted me ta check his nuh~uhs ta see what was itchin' him!
i could see if he wasn't able ta do this himself but yeh HE COULD & didn't! so now i'm sorta stuck w/salve ta put on the scars it caused in my noggin & REALLY hopin' i can get used ta the different kinda relationship we have! i know its gotta be weird & embarrassin' 4 him but...he sure don't show it! 

sorry just sorta needed ta vent!

hope this post wasn't 2 offensive ta any1!

~*flutterfly tryin' ta adjust!*~ 

[flutterfly]

well guys...this season is a mad^hatter kinda wookiness 4 the lil' agoraphobic!

lights are bright...peeps are all in a hurry & sumtimes just plain rude & mean!

startin' ta wear on me! i have problems on a normal basis...but this time of year...

i'ts just AMPLIFIED 100 times over!!!

i just wanna dot sum peeps eyes & cross their ears!   

~*flutterfly...puttin' finners behind back 4 less temptation!*~