Reality Is Setting In.. I Had A Heart Attack..

[Sandra]

There's a fighter, so glad you are! So glad you decided to go this time! Hope the next bit of the ride is easier. What i'd like to add is that when my father had his heart attack(s) we were sent home with a booklet about the whole ordeal. Part of what the booklet said is that there is some kind of physiological component to heart attack and meloncoly or depression, that mood changes are to be expected right off until things even out. Between the body scrambling and the mind scrambling it's no wonder you feel a bit scambled, take good care of yourself, so glad you are here. Sandra

[wen.uk]

Blimey Seabreeze - frightening stuff indeed - you must feel like you've been put through the mill.  thank God you had the idea to go the the hospital.

Be gentle with yourself, and when you're feeling up to it keep us all posted on your progress.

Wen x

[Victoria05202000]

SeaBreeze!!!!!!

I am so glad you listened to yourself and got to the ER.  I will be praying for you.  TONS of hugs being sent your way!

Take Care!
Vicky

[SeaBreeze]

Wow... Thank you to all of you... I'm so grateful to be reading and posting here... Hope you don't mind if I go on for a bit...
Its incredible what you take for granted.  Its also amazing to be that sick and then home doing ok all within a week... that's the part I can't wrap my brain around... I have an appt Monday with my psychiatrist to go over my meds, I'm very tempted to stop a couple of the bipolar meds that zap my energy but know I can't do that or risk disregulation.
I had a phone session with my counselor today... I really felt that I shouldn't drive.  We have had a couple over the last few days.. she is so good to me... She asked me what made me decide to go to ER... I explained to her that while I was sitting in drug store parking lot praying the Mylanta would work... (it wasn't) I got an overwhelming message I know it was from my deceased father, I know it was him, a bounding voice that said GO... YOU HAVE TO GO NOW, RIGHT NOW.. That was it, I drove to the ER... (I know, cardinal mistake) It may sound weird, but I've 'heard' from him before... 100% he is saving my life in some way; one time I was in the car going along ok and felt him say MOVE, MOVE AWAY... I moved into the next lane and up ahead passed an accident and the cars involved were still moving, still not sure what happened exactly but it happened in the lane I was in... I've learned to 'listen' to these 'feelings' or messages now even when they don't make sense.  Yikes, coming in here and posting is helping a bit... I'm so bored...

[Collie]

SeaBreeze,

OMG, I am glad you were able to get to the ER and get the treatment you needed, and glad to hear you are feeling better. But, my gosh, it just goes to show, one never knows what the day will hold. I will be praying for you, and sending you gentle hugs.

Collie

[Tinker]

Seabreeze,
How are feeling today?  I really connnected with you when you mentioned the feelings you had....about your Dad telling you to Go NOW to the ER! 

I know that same thing has happened to me.  Once, I was driving on a 2 lane street and saw 2 kids on 10 speed bikes.  Something told me to stop.  I did.  One of the kids , at that very moment, flipped on that bike and landed right in front of my wheel.

He jumped up to get out of the way of my car but I was already stopped.   I don't know why I stopped....but it was an overwhelming feeling.  I'm so glad I did. 

I DO believe our deceased family members look over us.  I'm glad your Dad was looking after you and sending you to the hospital.  ♥♥♥♥  Tinker

[genko_b]

Interesting how those things happen, isn't it? About 20 years ago I dreamt three nights in a row about my paternal grandmother. Strange, because I was never as close to her as to my other grandmother, and had never dreamt about her before. The morning after the third dream, I woke up and the first thought in my head was: get a mammogram. I called that morning, had the mammogram, and they found a lump that had to be removed.

Turns out my grandmother had died of breast cancer.

Who knows if it was some deep memory I had of being told that, retrieved through a dream about her, or what. Anyway, it's good I paid attention. What ever it was, I am grateful for it.

Genko

[Lowell]

I'm so sorry this happened to you! Sending happy thoughts and prayers your way! Hope you feel better soon!

[SeaBreeze]

Good Evening...
I feel like I've turned this into my cardiac blog 
Thank you again for all the well wishes...
I'd love to say I'm feeling better, I really don't, but I expect to !

I'm in this cycle of gerd pain versus chest pain, versus anxiety... around and around I go..
Throw in a low blood pressure, palpitations, some dizziness and head spinning, doctor called to say my potassium is really low again and I've got myself all worked up.  I have to go into the lab tomorrow, on a Saturday to have more bloodwork and someone take my blood pressure, but don't drive there... hmmmm

Everyone told me to go directly to the ER if I had any pain in my chest... well, I would have been there at least
three times today already    I'm exaggerating of course 

My soon-to-be EX-H has been around a lot, someone called him the other day and he's being so sweet, stopped by yesterday and today, will bring me tomorrow... I can't even think about where this is going....... but we put stuff aside for now and he's helping me... I don't mind for now, funny how our priorities can change...

That's it for tonight...
Love you guys !!!!     

[pudmott]

Breezy honey,

If that chest pain gets any worse. go to the ER. Don't play around with it. Get that blood test done. And make sure they do saomething about the potassium.

I know its hard but try and relax cause the anxiety is not going to help things at all.

Let your EX do whatever he can. Figure out the logistics of it later.

If all else fails got to the cheesburger. i have just been there and cackled my head off. Its great for lifting ones mood.

Take care mate. im thinking of ya

Pud

[SeaBreeze]

I just had to whine here a moment.  Over the weekend I started having dull ache in my chest which got a little worse and is still at that level right now. I had cardiology appt today, EKG was stable, I'm waiting for doctor to call with blood work results tonight.. He's not convinced that it is not the heart...

I posted on another thread that my cardio and GP ordered a cardiac inflammation panel; homocyestine, BNP, sed, c-rp and a couple other tests. There is a chance that this heart attack was hastened by the mctd; sle/SjS and raynauds.

The docs mention this and then say, lets see if we can rule it out.. very scary to me as the docs do more testing.   I do have several risk factors, diabetes, history, high cholesterol. They are doing another echocardiogram, stress echo, and MRI. I've been told not to go back to work yet, "we can talk about it after your tests"... I'm signed up for 12-weeks of cardiac rehab. The possibility that my AI's are affecting my heart already is maKing me nuts.. I was just diagnosed in August.  I'm in between rheumies with an appt with new one mid Dec. The stress is starting to pile up, not working, expected depression and the topper is they want to take me off of Provigil with no substitute for 'sleepiness'... and they added lopressor 100mg which is putting me to sleep.. thanks for listening...

[genko_b]

Oh SeaBreeze, How scary for you. At least the doc saw you today and is following up on things. Please keep us informed, and we will keep you in our thoughts and prayers.

Genko

[Chana M]

SeaBreeze - this isn't a whine.  You're perfectly entitled to feel overwhelmed by what is happening to you.  And you know that we're all here thinking about you and sending you all the positive thoughts we can muster.

The good thing is that your doctors are taking this seriously, booking tests and organising the cardiac rehab.  Your job is to be as positive as you can, to work with your body and trust those around you.  I know it's difficult - I have had heart problems since early childhood rheumatic fever so I have had a share of the fear you're experiencing right now.

You need some treats!  How about making a collection of favourite films, music, easy-read books, photos and snacks?  Each time you feel one of those miserable feelings descending you can grab the next treat and push the sad thoughts away.  I know it's not the answer but I find just looking at my pile of treats helps beat the loneliness and fear. Flowers are good too! And so are your friends here.

Hope some of this helps.

Chana x