Depression follows illness...

[Meld256]

Thanks Daisy1234 and BonusMom

I'm sure the sinus infection and tooth absesses contributed to my blues and despondence. It also kicked my joint pain into 4th gear so I guess no wonder I was having myself one big ole pity-party!
I'm glad me and my honey talked, too.

I appreciate your hugs, positive thoughts and healing wishes.
Melinda

[flutterfly]

   hi meld~sorry u feel the misery both in ur body & ur lil' noggin!

was the covo w/hubby a futile 1?

or did he actually
→pick up what u were puttin'down?←

much luv sweets! i will put in request ta the bearded fat guy 4 an...
understandin' tender luvin' hubby that u deserve sweets! OH & 4 ur body ta co~operate w/ya!

~*flutterfly...pullin' out pen & paper...is there anythin' else u want me ta jot down dearheart?*~   

[Meld256]

awh, thanks flutterfly 

Yes, my talk with my husband was good. He seems to have a new understanding of what I deal with.

Today, we did the Christmas shopping together and he did some things around the house he hasn't done for a while. (he had the day off again) He even cleaned out a kitchen cabinet I'd been meaning to get to; washed all the plates and glasses and rearranged them! We enjoyed our time together.
I appreciate the request to the beared fat guy. thank you, dear.

I hope your day is a better one,
Melinda

[flutterfly]

   u betcha sweets!

i'll keep pad & paper ready...

but we're runnin' outa time!

(it is the big guys busy season luv)!

i'll keep ya in my thoughts!

~*flutterfly sayin'...santa please lemme explain!
it REALLY wasn't me!*~

[mink]

Meld sweety , you are in my thoughts and prayers . Just like you mentioned ..writing to your hubby sometimes is best cause they actually get to read it and it sort of pops out at them you know..it also works for me too and it's easier cause you get to say what you wanna without being interrupted. 
None of us deserve to be in this much pain and it's often underestimated . just like you when those rough times hit or relapses, I feel like this one is putting me way under and i sometimes wonder if i'll recover the same or at all for that matter, cause it just hurts so much!!
:DSo meld hang in there honey cause i'm here ROOTING for ya!!!!!!

@Dolly Dimples ..I'm with ya  lol

[Meld256]

Mink,

I think I understand what you're going through, too. I am rootin' for you too!  Please hang in there.  It seems that things really do get better, but when we are in pain it is scary.
For those of us who have long bouts of a flare, it is frightening to think about. I had 2-3 mths.that I was basically bed-bound so it's no fun.
I need to remember that depression WILL rear its head with pain; not to be surprised and then learn how to deal with it. That's the big multi-million dollar question, isn't it?
Thank you for your kind support and help. My thoughts and prayers are with you, sweetie, that you come through this soon.

flutterfly,
I'm learning to read your posts better!  ;DMy thoughts are with you, too, sweetie. Hope you have a good weekend and appreciate your wishes for me.
Take care,
Melinda

[flutterfly]

  yay meld...u's gettin' me!

yes depression is ALWAYS ready ta take over...'specially if u are down!
vicious i tell ya!

just know WHEN or IF it does...
we ARE here!

much luv ta u & urs!

lets ditch this year & grab us a FRESH ONE!

※HAPPY NEW YEAR!※

~*flutterfly...sayin' this had BETTER be a better 1!*~

[Meld256]

thanks, flutterfly 

How's about that? I am learning "flutterfly-ese" (wink) 
I appreciate you all being there for me. I talked with my dear sister afterward and that helped. I've decided to find some counseling (this week) on how to better deal with these kinds of days.

I think I am dealing better with the "everyday" stuff.  But this flare sent me down a nasty, slippery slope of despair. I know it very likely might happen again, and I need some help in how to fight it off, roll with it or just how to deal with it!

I understand you, Elaine. Thanks for your kind words. I also was beating myself up because I was depressed, and at the same time feeling foolish for it. Good Lord, it was pretty awful. But, now I will take action...will not let the little "depression devil" get the best of me.
Take care, everyone.
Melinda