Thanks Barrie! I do try to take things a day at a time and it does help.
The adventure that is my life continues! My mom left town yesterday to visit my sister at college. She hired a professional caregiver to come in and help with meals and stuff since my dad works all day and isn't much help. My mom already knew her since she is the mother of a friend of hers. So this lady shows up yesterday 1 1/2 hours late with her friend. She introduces her friend but offers no explanation as to why she's there. The two of them talk amongst themselves. It was very odd and extremely unprofessional. But I was so so tired yesterday I didn't have the energy to figure out how to address the situation. My dad didn't have time to try and figure it out either apparently because he didn't ask either though he also thought is was very strange.
After they left (my dad suggest they could go since I was taking a nap and they had nothing to do), my dad and I agreed that if she brought her friend again today we wouldn't have her come back. Well she brought her friend, so my dad made an excuse and said we didn't need them anymore and left it up to my mom to figure out what the heck happened when she gets back.
I'd also be ready to smack my sister by now if she weren't out of smacking range by several states. First she calls me up on Wednesday afternoon while I'm napping demanding I help her find software to make a flow chart with. I tell her I'm sleeping. No appology for waking me only (and this is a direct quote) "Well you aren't thinking hard enough. Wake up more! Pretend I'm your doctor calling and you have to wake up and talk to me!"
It would be more hilarious if it weren't so rude. I tell her I don't have an answer of the top off my head. She gets mad and hangs up on me.
The next day as if none of this has happened, she calls again requesting that if my mom (who is flying to see her) doesn't get there in time can I proof read her paper for her that's due at midnight. I say ok. She also asks that if I'm not up to it, could I ask my (I guess former now) best friend if she can do it. I tell her I haven't spoken to my best friend in over a month. "WHAT?!?", she exclaims. "I thought she had apologized for being so absent and was going to start hanging out more." This was the last time I spoke to my friend over a month ago I tell her. She's shocked. I'm thinking... well you never ask what's going on with me and don't ever want to hear it, so what do you expect? All you do is complain how miserable your life is.
I didn't say anything though. I wasn't up to getting into everything with her right then. No point in getting into an argument with her resulting in her being too upset to write her paper and then blaming me. She'll be home in three weeks. I'll let her know how I've been feeling about our relationship then.
In the mean time, I finally took my temp last night because I was feeling so awful. It was 99.9 which is really high for me. I usually run in the high 97s, but I've been running 99.4 or 99.6 for the last two weeks every afternoon. So I have no idea what up with that. My most recent batch of labs and stuff have come back normal (except for the enlarged liver), so my docs concluded that I'm probably just having a flare. But with this spiked fever last night, I now have no idea again. And of course its Friday. And my mom's gone so I couldn't go to the doc anyway.
I'm planning to just ride it out through the weekend and see what (if anything) happens. I'm just rather frusterated with all this feeling crappy for no apparent reason. If it really is just a flare then I want my rheumy to bump up my meds. He's proving elusive however right now. Three calls into his office. So far no return call.
To be continued...
