Billye,
So sorry it took so long to respond to this poignant thread. Our prayers and thoughts are for you and your cousin. You're so right about life not being fair. You can't help but wonder why things happen as they do. To this day I still wonder why young people have to die. We except the inevitable as far as life and death, but to die so young is not only painful for the person, but especially for the family. I know you feel so torn you don't know what to say or feel, but please don't ever say that you wished it would be you. You're very special to us and we wouldn't know what we would do without you. I guess one day we'll find out why things happen as they do. Until then, please don't hesitate to ask for a thing. That's why we're all here.
Love always
Barrie